Everything seems to be a lie when i hear it from your mouth that you flirt with your ex is normal always like this....  IT JUST HURT SO MUCH... yes i know it does not matter anymore now like what you have said.  The amount of tears this few nights is just so scary.  Literally crying myself to sleep.  Seeing how you placed the grocery just now just shows how much you did not want to share with me and marking your own territory.  I did not even make any noise of you using my eggs and the tibits i bought.  However i see you not wanting me to eat your  tibits really shows how much we are done in your opinion.  Hearing you say not going to reply my mum message just hurt me SO much.  What have my mum done to deserve your treatment like this.  There is so much so much of me not wanting to say goodbye.  Being your eyesore is the last thing i would want to be now.  I am going to miss you lucky cheery.  Love you deeply.  In my deepest memory.  Never forgotten.

The night before valentine day was so sweet and lovely...that moment shall be my last memory of how fortunate i am for having such a good loving husband.  I don't know how much can i endure from there, the pain and sadness.  I will try because what i have left is myself.  I am sorry i cannot be like you, living under the same roof but not caring for each other, taking each other existence like invisible.  I can only either love you or hate you.  To someone whom i really wanted to stand by for the rest of my life till old age hates me, felt SO impossible to live with me and do not wish to see or talk to me.  Really cannot imagine how my newlywed lunar new year had become.  I ruin everything.