YINGYING I LOVE YOU

LIYING I LOVE YOU

SOMEONE WHO REALLY LOVE ME AND NV WALK AWAY

ITS WED.... FEELING SO TIRED AND SICK
fever come and gooo
especially today head up and down...
doing head exercise

a shoulder to lean on at the end of the day is more than enough

its been more than a week
its sad but if this is what you want..........

i really hv no idea how much i can hang on to this kinda job

yearning for a shoulder to lie on which will nv appear

nv nv appear...
i have only mine to lean on ti myself...
BE STRONG
YOU CAN DO IT....

JIA YOU

just how much it pain me when someone i love
don even feel anything when i says im being bullied
when im sick and i need to go to work....
this really really really shows how much im worth...
seriously....
yeah wondering how we came up to this kinda mess
u got what u wanted...
and blame everything on me...
every single lil things
u can even lie abt not doing anything over the weekend...
thats very cool... and saying that now u hv to report to me...
yeah report...

seriously why should i even care...
u having ur deserved utmost fun....
go ahead.. CHEAT AND LIE

i should really really stop crying
the day i stop crying is the day i stop loving u
since u hv stopped
why do i hv to keep crying....

u are selfish
totally

you made me lose everything
cause im now all freaking alone...
not even my best fren to confide with
all thanks to u

let me fall even sicker so that i cant nv wakes up
only then this world can have more peace

its a tiring and sick day...
u are tired i am tired...
i cant bring what u wanted me to
and i guess thats it...
you being the man being stress isnt what it should be?
does it mean with ur stress my stress is zero is invisible?
u are disappointed in me
so am i....
never will i expect this kinda thing to be out from your mouth

me being not impt
ur part time work is much more impt den me...
its swirling around my head almost all the time....
the only time that im not feeling sad is when im at work
cuz im too busy to think of it...
and i cant cry in front of my colleagues...
the worse... i hv to lie to my best fren abt it...
gotta laugh my day off...
the only time im really me is when im at home in my own own
wiping away....
you got what you wanted
be content and be happy...........
how i wish i can disappear into the thin air...

nv to exists again

me and my teeth...
its definitely not an easy night to get by with
been days...
hopefully its easier tonight...

hmmm i doubt so...
tears streaming while doing my run

im wondering if its me that bought myself to this state...
if it is...
okay i deserve it ALONE i guess
thanks...
bet u enjoyed this week
cause i REALLY REALLY hope u did...

its a very lousy weekend for me
so i really really really x100000000
that mon work can be more lenient to me

its kinda torturous actually
good night lucky cheery

i really really wish that you are there when someone bullied me
i really really wish that you are there to help me up when i fall

i guessed im not important after all....

oh yes a week past...
congrats to you

you have just proven me something...



加油 liying, it might be a better monday after all
even though you dont know how much longer you can hang on to...
when ever you look up above ur laptop at home,
you will see her smiling at you when you are all alone

ijustcantimaginewhatkindashitimlandeduponalone
alliwishforwastobeabletotalktosomeoneandsomeonetosupportme
imightbegonebeforeyouknowwhereiam
whenwearescaredsometimesweneededhelptoo
lifeisshort

filled with envy
total "envy"


真幸福

i think the saddest and worse thing
was to be going through all this alone.....

"giving up"

almost forgot about the feeling when u fall
fall into bruises all over...
especially when ur wounds split open and blood oozes out...

oh well at least today i remembered

From 6AM i wakes up
till now 10.40PM
there is no time to even take a rest
take a breather
seeing/thinking how other people spends the night
or spends the day
just feeling sad for that moment...

there is this song i quite like...
it has the lyrics of:-
when u try ur best but u don succeed
when u get wad u want but nt wad u need
when u feel so tired but u cant slp
stuck and reverse
and the tears come streaming down ur face
.
.
.
lights will guide u home...
and ignite ur boat
.
.


Dont know to be happy or sad that there is no class on friday

what is work exactly
how can i hate work so much?
so much so that that im feeling like a LOSER right now
when everything comes crumbling down
i just feel like falling down too
F
A
L
L

nothing i do is right...
in work...
in sch...
in life...
nothing is right because im the wrong thing from the start

im worth nth...
just like all those bad words that come shooting out from u...
those words are wad im worthy of...
those words are truly for me and only for me...
i cant imagine how much dirty it can go

work and life nothing is right...
how worse can it go further...
how worse?
i bring trouble
i bring crap to everyone's life
EVERYONE

i can only find some care n concern
while looking into that photo...

im just hoping that you can bring me with you.................

when its really hurting...
you just feel sick and very sick

The fear and stress that transform to tears...
its a month time to exam... A MONTH...
how fast time flies...
-_-

wads so afraid of loneliness?
after all i was lonely last time isnt it...

so funny...
at home sobbing away... my mum asks me "flu?"
i replied yes.... i made my sobbing sound like im having flu
and my mum told me to take some flu medicine...
how sweet/caring of my mum....
in life i will always love my 2 greatest women!!!
my grandma and my mum!

feeling of me being so unimportant made me
really feel like just taking a step out on the road when its red light for the pedestrian...
this thinking is the sign of me being WEAK
how can i have this kinda thinking?
other human being who wanna walk and run around like a normal person
is unable to make it yet here i am thinking this kinda things...
Somehow i realise why there are suicide cases in sg sch...
work sch life is just so stressful
people who dont cope it well will be DEAD

AM I?

me being in ur life is just making ur life SICK
its not enhancing ur life at all..
i should not be that selfish....

goodbye is always hard
just the same as saying good bye to my life................

SADNESS... feeling of failure.... too overwhelmed........